as we would say ...

2006-03-30T15:41:00.000+08:00

Life is Small : Live it ;
Love is short : Flirt it ;
Anger is injurious : Dump it ;
Troubles are momentary : Face it ;
Memories are Sweet : Cherish it

Count your blessings, not your problems

2006-03-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200 people, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground, and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE. You are special - Don't EVER forget it."

If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring.

Count your blessings, not your problems.

ayam oh ayam ..

2006-03-14T14:27:00.000+08:00

2006-03-10T09:26:00.000+08:00

If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car
payments.

~ Earl Wilson

The Secret

2006-03-06T16:22:00.000+08:00

One day, one friend asked another,
"How is it that you are always so happy?
You have so much energy, and you never seem to get down."

With her eyes smiling, she said,
"I know the Secret.
I'll tell you all about it, but you have to promise to
share the Secret with others."

"The Secret is this:
All I do is live a simple life,
have some really good friends,
a happy family and enjoy nature.
I have learned most of the time
I don't need half of what I think I do.
With the above thoughts,
I learned the 'Secret' to a happy life."

The questioner's first thought was,
"That's too simple!"
But upon reflecting over her own life,
she recalled how she thought a bigger house
would make her happy, but it didn't.
She thought a better paying job
would make her happy, but it hadn't.
When did she realize her greatest happiness?
Sitting on the floor with her kids,
playing games, eating pizza or reading them a story.

Now you know it too!

And now I pass the Secret on to you.

Once you get it, would you please tell someone the secret too?

On Children(An excerpt from "The Prophet" by Kahlil Gibran)

2006-03-02T19:18:00.000+08:00

And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said,"Speak to us of Children". And he said:

Your children are not your children,
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but are not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your chilrenas living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, andHe bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far
Let your bending in th earcher's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
So he loves also the bow that is stable.

2006-03-02T12:09:00.000+08:00

"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"

"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.

"I don't much care where -- " said Alice.

"Then it doesn't matter which way you go," said the Cat.

" -- so long as I get somewhere," Alice added as an explanation.

"Oh, you're sure to do that," said the Cat, "if you only walk long enough."

...Alice in Wonderland

2006-03-01T09:48:00.000+08:00

"Constant kindness can accomplish much. As the sun makes ice melt, kindness causes misunderstanding, mistrust and hostility to evaporate."
Author:Albert Schweitzer

adab rasul - satu peringatan

2006-02-24T11:55:00.000+08:00

For our not so many visitors - I'm putting the below as a reminder for my forgetful self. Do read on, if you wish. Semoga menjadi renungan dan pelajaran kepada kita semua. Ilmu yang bermanfaat ialah salah satu amal yang berkekalan bagi orang yang mengajarnya meskipun dia sudah meninggal dunia...

Adab Rasul

1. SELALU BANGUN SEBELUM SUBUH
Rasul selalu mengajak ummatnya untuk bangun sebelum subuh, melaksanakansolat sunat dan solat Fardhu, solat subuh berjamaah. Hal ini memberihikmah yang mendalam antara lain :- Berlimpah pahala dari Allah- Kesegaran udara subuh yg bagus utk kesihatan/ terapi penyakit TB- Memperkuat fikiran dan menyehatkan perasaan.

2. AKTIF MENJAGA KEBERSIHAN
Rasul selalu sentiasa rapi & bersih, tiap hari khamis atau Jumaatbeliau mencuci rambut-rambut halus di pipi, selalu memotong kuku, bersisir danberminyak wangi. "Mandi pada hari Jumaat adalah wajib bagi setiap orang-orang dewasa.Demikian pula menggosok gigi dan memakai harum-haruman"(HR Muslim)

3.TIDAK PERNAH BANYAK MAKAN
Sabda Rasul : "Kami adalah sebuah kaum yang tidak makan sebelum lapardan bila kami makan tidak terlalu banyak ( tidak sampaikekenyangan)"(Muttafaq Alaih)

Dalam tubuh manusia ada 3 ruang untuk 3 benda : Sepertiga untuk udara,sepertiga untuk air dan sepertiga lainnya untuk makanan. Bahkan adasatu tarbiyyah khusus bagi ummat Islam dengan adanya Puasa Ramadhan untukmenyeimbangkan kesihatan.

4. GEMAR BERJALAN KAKI
Rasul selalu berjalan kaki ke Masjid, Pasar, medan jihad, mengunjungirumah sahabat, dan sebagainya. Dengan berjalan kaki, keringat akan mengalir,pori-pori terbuka dan peredaran darah akan berjalan lancar. Ini pentinguntuk mencegah penyakit jantung.

5. TIDAK PEMARAH
Nasihat Rasulullah : "Jangan Marah" diulangi sampai 3 kali. Ini menunjukkan hakikat kesihatan dan kekuatan Muslim bukanlah terletak pada jasadiyahbelaka, tetapi lebih jauh yaitu dilandasi oleh kebersihan dan kesehatanjiwa.Ada terapi yang tepat untuk menahan marah :- Mengubah posisi ketika marah, bila berdiri maka duduk, dan bila dudukmaka berbaring- Membaca Ta'awwudz, kerana marah itu dari Syaitan- Segeralah berwudhuk- Solat 2 Rokaat untuk meraih ketenangan dan menghilangkan kegundahan hati.

6 OPTIMIS DAN TIDAK PUTUS ASA
Sikap optimis akan memberikan kesan psikologis yang mendalam bagikelapangan jiwa sehingga tetap sabar, istiqomah dan bekerja keras,serta tawakal kepada Allah SWT.

7. TAK PERNAH IRI HATI
Untuk menjaga stabilitas hati & kesehatan jiwa, mentalitas makamenjauhi iri hati merupakan tindakan preventif yang sangat tepat.

Doa yang baik diamalkan - "Ya Allah,bersihkanlah hatiku dari sifat sifat mazmumah dan hiasilahdiriku dengan sifat sifat mahmudah"

beauty and love

2006-02-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

Beauty and love are all my dream;
They change not with the changing day;
Love stays forever like a stream
That flows but never flows away;

And beauty is the bright sun-bow
That blossoms on the spray that showers
Where the loud water falls below,
Making a wind among the flowers.

2006-02-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

It's the 10th of Feb.. I should have remembered, I have set alarms, it should have triggered me via e-mail.. Aduh, must have wrongly deleted them..

Zickry called asking when will I be home. It's not normal, because the kids know not to expect me to be home early these days. I asked him why and he said, we are waiting for the cake. Huh? What cake? Did I promised to bake you one? And you know what my son said? "Harapkan Mummy, makan kek bantat le.." Dalam hati, nasib baik anak aku.. but true, I'm hopeless where baking is concern. Oh well.. I almost, ALMOST forgotten that it's Mumsie's birthday today. How lah? I'm still at the office ni..

2006-02-09T10:05:00.000+08:00

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts... And we are never, ever the same.

eat, drink and be merry...

2006-02-01T18:11:00.000+08:00

That's my brief summary of what had happened during the long weekend. It was kind of hectic for me and the rest of the pack. I ate and ate and ate.. boy, didnt I tell you I gained a good 5kgs and still gaining? Of course not, cause I havent been updating, les the story about my goal on weight gaining. Before I ramble on, I was about 40kg (skinny, I know), that was just last year and the goal for 2006 is to get 15kgs or 10kgs at the very least. Just 2 weeks after we greeted 2006, I gained 5kgs.. I can now beam happily though teeth would be clinched tight when putting on the old jeans.. I know, a change of wardrobe will soon be in order or is it time already? Tunggu.. bonus bulan March, shh..

Well, there was a feast on Saturday, well we actually had to accompany the groom who's my cousin. Next day, Sunday was the reception at the groom's. It was grand, at least the food was.. I'm beginning to sound more like Garfield, am I? Hee.. We were like so merry-merry but before the day ended, we received a bad news. My grandad's younger brother had been released off his illness, he passed away peacefully in his sleep while everyone else was sleeping too. That's another excuse for makan-makan because after 'ziarah' we dropped by at Maktok's who gave us quite a feast.

On Monday we practically lepak at home.. Me? Lepak? Yes, lepak as in penat and cannot really lepak as in resting or vegging infront of the tele as the machine was hogged most of the time. If not for Disney Channel or Cartoon Network, it's the darn PS2 thingy.I surrendered and sleep was my only consolation. I woke up when one of the smaller boys called, announcing that they've decided to go swimming. Now, makan lagi, as we decided against the beach and pool but to go to the waterfall. We swam and eat, we did too.. Came Tuesday and there's another scheduled feast - my younger brother's engagement. We had lunch at Mama's where the troop (rombongan meminang) gathered. The chef was none other than my father's third brother. He's a reknown cook (within the big family lah) and it was a darn good feast. We ate again much later (thankfully) at the girl's house.

Here you go, I practically stuffed my face up during the last holiday. And did I drink??What do you think? Of course, it was damn too hot the weather not to be drinking a lot of water! For those who might be thinking drinking as in drinking the forbidden beverages - what are you thinking.. heheh!

Merry? Yes, there were days that we were very the merry.. but I strongly feel that it would be a lot merrier if our pay isnt rescheduled to Feb 07...huhuh!!

february is here

2006-02-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

Well, whatdayouknow, it's now February!! Bummer!! So much about frequent blogging, huh? Sorry, I have been busy and I still am.. I meant to update and as mentioned time is a big factor for me. On behalf of the bloggers community I'd like to thank Jida for the reminder, yup, I need to be reminded to update.. haha! Jgn marah, ini sincere thanks. This is also showing that AT LEAST I check my own blog, and also, I read your comments. After all, you are one of the 2 avid readers of my blog - heheh..or so I think..

The boss is still away distributing oranges (not the red packets - she's unmarried) so discussions and adhoc meetings aside, I'm left with just minding what's on my 'plate' and judging by the number of calls I received so far today (it was none, really), I think I can afford a bit of time here although I have a scheduled short discussion shortly. I'll back, shortly and surely..

a room with a view ...

2006-01-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

Oh well.. I'm lounging on a huge pile of work now..*Wink*Wink* One has to rest.. tension, kepala bagai nak pecah..*Sigh*

Time is a huge factor for me now. There's plenty to update but with my typing skill (bak kata my mum, macam ayam patuk padi), I'm better off with blogging in the head, for now.. I'll spill them thoughts out one of these days.. Keep on blogging, because I'll be sure to visit your site (which I'm about to now..)..

Meanwhile, let me leave you with below..

If God answers your prayers, he is increasing your faith. If he delays,he is increasing your patience and, if he doesn't answer, he has something better for you... So always be happy in what ever comes your way.

adios 2005 ..

2006-01-09T17:21:00.000+08:00

Hello 2006, Welcome! I'm still running around like headless chicken trying hard to accomplish what's I've lined up for 2005 which is clearly impossible now that you're here. So please make yourself comfortable. I'll get back to you when I can (maybe in a few months). Perhaps to shake your hand before your departure.. Ouch, taknaklah busy sampai cam gitu...

I'm sorry for the silence. Somehow I'm still caught in the race. I'll be actively blogging soon, very soon.. Happy New Year .. Selamat Aidil Adha..!!

I'm getting married!!!!

2005-12-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not ...

For many people, this is so-long-overdue ..heheh .. Me and Lana is exactly the same age (she's older by a about month) and yet she already have 3 kids!!!!

At last I got the diamond ring, the kind of ring that worth all the long wait. The engagemet went beautifully, for a last minute plan! Everyone's reaction at the time when I told them of the planned engagement, "You are getting engage when? This weekend??" hehehehehe .... yup, that's me, a woman of many surprises.. Almost give my mom a heart attack.

Now the wedding plan... adoi... lagi pening kepala. Everyone want to have their say, though in actual fact, I HAVE THE FINAL SAY.... can't everyone got that???? pening, pening....

I will update as much as I can in this blog..

BTW here's a pic of my sparkling diamond ring. Prettiest ring in the world ehhehehehehe... bias la ni...

pstt..pstt..

2005-12-07T16:37:00.000+08:00

Psstt..Psstt.. Just a piece of news I'd like to share with you..

There's a certain someone who's engaged to be married last Nov 27th.. Blaming on the race (again) I didnt have the chance to blog it all up.. Anyways, my heartiest congratulations my dearest friend. Do take good care of yourself although we all know how busy you are with the wedding arrangement bla-bla..Extra lines on the face are utmost unwelcoming..

Tak sabar nak tengok wedding card.. hee!

speak life to those who cross your path

2005-12-07T14:15:00.000+08:00

A group of frogs was travelling through the woods, and two of them fell into a deep pit. All the other frogs gathered around the pit. When they saw how deep the pit was, they told the unfortunate frogs they would never get out. The two frogs ignored the comments and tried to jump up out of the pit. The other frogs kept telling them to stop, that they were as good as dead.

Finally, one of the frogs took heed to what the other frogs were saying and simply gave up. He fell down and died. The other frog continued to jump as hard as he could. Once again, the crowd of frogs yelled at him to stop the pain and suffering and just die. He jumped even harder and finally made it out. When he got out, the other frogs asked him, "Why did you continue jumping. Didn't you hear us?" The frog explained to them that he was deaf. He thought they were encouraging him the entire time.

This story teaches two lessons:
1. There is power of life and death in the tongue. An encouraging word to someone who is down can lift them up and help them make it through the day.

2. A destructive word to someone who is down can be what it takes to kill them. Be careful of what you say. Speak life to those who cross your path.

The power of words....it is sometimes hard to understand that an encouraging word can go such a long way. Anyone can speak words that tend to rob another of the spirit to continue in difficult times. Special is the
individual who will take the time to encourage another. Be special to others.

*another one 'cilok' from my inbox... masih too busy

Quote for the day ...

2005-11-29T10:56:00.000+08:00

...Jangan pernah mengasihani diri sendiri, kerana mengasihani diri sendiri akan
membuat kita terperangkap di kubangan kesedihan.

Ada prinsip yang mungkin kita tahu, tetapi sering kita lupakan, iaitu dengan menolong orang lain sesungguhnya kita menolong diri sendiri...

..and i dont know where this came from..

diary of a new bride

2005-11-25T15:44:00.000+08:00

I'm up to my eyeballs with work (whatelse).Do enjoy this while I continue "enjoying" myself with work (big laugh!)

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Dear Diary,

Monday;
Now home from honeymoon and settled in our newhome, it's fun to cook for Bill. Today I made an angelfood cake and the recipe said, "Beat 12 eggs separately."Well, I didn't have enough bowls to do that, so I had to borrow enough bowls to beat the eggs in. The cake turned out fine.

Tuesday;
We wanted a fruit salad for supper. The recipe said,"Serve without dressing." So, I didn't dress. But, Bill happened to bring a friend home for supper that night.Did they ever look startled when I served the salad!

Wednesday:
I decided to serve rice and found a recipe which said,"Wash thoroughly before steaming the rice." So, Iheated some water and took a bath before steaming the rice. Sounded kinda silly in the middle of the week.I can't say it improved the rice any.

Thursday:
Today Bill asked for salad again. I tried a new recipe.It said, "Prepare ingredients, then toss on a bed of lettuce one hour before serving." I hunted all over the garden by my Mom's. So I tossed my salad into the bed of lettuce and stood over there one hour so the dog would not take it. Bill came over and asked if I felt all right. I wonder why?

Friday:
Today I found an easy recipe for cookies. It said, "Put all ingredients in a bowl and beat it." Beat it I did, right over to my Mom's house! There must have been something wrong with the recipe, because when I came back home again it looked the same as when I left it.

Saturday
Bill went shopping today and brought home a chicken.He asked me to dress it for Sunday. I'm sure I don't know how hens dress for Sunday. I never noticed back on the farm, but I found a doll dress and some little shoes. I though the hen looked real cute. When Bill saw it, I wondered why he counted to 10.

Sunday:
Today Bill's folks came to dinner. I wanted to serveroast, but all we had in the icebox, was hamburger.So I put it in the oven and set the controls for roast.There must be a problem with the oven, because it still came out a hamburger.

Monday:
I was going to bake bread today. The recipe said, "Mixwell and knead well. Then stand in a warm place until double in bulk." I just won't bake bread if I have to double in bulk!

Goodnight Dear Diary. This has been an exciting week.I am eager for tomorrow to come, so I can try a new recipe on Bill. If we could just get a bigger oven,I would like to surprise him with "chocolate moose."

i'm thinking of you ..

2005-11-22T11:05:00.000+08:00

..my lovely friends of modblog town.. it's been a while, ja?

cinta - ada apa dgn ini posting?

2005-11-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

Cinta - Melly Goeslaw feat. Krisdayanti

menapak jalan yg menjauh

tentukan arah yg ku mau

tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa

yg membuat hati lara

di dekat engkau aku tenang

sendu matamu penuh tanya

misteri hidup akankah menghilang

dan bahagia di akhir cerita

reff: cinta, tegarkan hatiku

tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau

naluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi

kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa

aku junjung petuahmu

cintai dia yg mencintai ku

hatinya dulu berlayar, kini telah menepi

bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia

di dekat engkau aku tenang

sendu matamu penuh tanya

misteri hidup akankah menghilang

dan bahagia di akhir cerita

repeat reff

cinta biar saja ada

yg terjadi biar saja terjadi

bagaimana pun hidup hanya cerita

cerita tentang yg meninggalkan

dan yg ditinggalkan cinta

from the other side of the window

2005-11-16T13:18:00.000+08:00

Cleaning and tidying up is still on going.. However..

I became so excited and thrilled upon being told of the BIG news earlier this morning. So the the almost ‘basi’ Hari Raya story has to make way as the much anticipated BIG news is my preoccupation for now. It's definitely bigger than the bombing news or even Dr Azahari’s death for moi. Well, each of different outlooks surely. But the news, my friend, (as I know you will be reading) is a great GREAT news.

Yes, finally my bestie whom I cherished for years is getting married. Hidung dah terbau-bau nasi minyak and the ears dok dengar bunyi wedding bells ni.

I couldn’t yet visualize you and (well what should we call him as "Giant" is already taken? Now, think, what is taller and larger than Giant eh?) .. Anyways, I still couldn’t visualize you both on the ‘pelamin’ but boy, before we get to that, I’m compiling all the related pics and infos there are in the web for you my friend. March is too short a period to be planning. Don’t you think?

Alamak.. Sekuat-kuat bunyi the wedding bells (in my conscience), kuat lagi the growling of my small tummy.. Camne? Makan dululah ye.. So much about the excitement. I shall continue..

tunggu ...

2005-11-13T09:30:00.000+08:00

This place is rather dusty.

I had long came back from the hols. I'm still 'tidying' up work, home and soon this blog.

I shall be back as soon as I'm done dusting and cleaning, surely.

Eidul Mubarak

2005-10-28T15:53:00.000+08:00

This would be the last post for me before the holidays. I’m taking about a week’s break. Tomorrow, the new maid will arrive. I’m a little bit anxious as well as hopeful that she’ll get along well fine with the boys and praying that she’ll take care of them as well as the last one (if not better). I’m taking the chance to train her during the holidays. Wish me luck.

I’m still at the office although the mind has taken off elsewhere or rather everywhere. Already in holiday mood. Yang tak bestnya, Makcik ni, dah tau most of us already in the festive mood, ada saja nak check ini, nak implement itu.. Ala, lepas holiday tak boleh ke? The otak has gone holidaying lah Makcik.. malas nak pikir.. Tengok muka tension, nanti I jadi tension. Tak naklah. The body desperately in need to join the holidaying mind so, buat apa tension2..

Since this could be my last post before the holiday, I would like to take the opportunity to wish everyone a Selamat Hari Raya. Salah silap harap dimaafkan. For those who are not celebrating both Raya and Diwali, I hope you will enjoy the break.

Til we meet again.. Cheers!

happy birthday abang giant

2005-10-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

I turned 33 yesterday. Too bad, I had cold so the whole day was spent on the bed. Hee, ponteng kerja and spoilt the surprise these lovely people at the office had for me.

Today, it’s Giant’s burstday. Blaming the race (again), I didn’t have the chance to get him anything. I’ll get something, this weekend perhaps. We’ll probably go out for Iftar this evening. Still, I’m kind of too occupied to think, so, I’ll let him decide later.

Since I wasn’t well yesterday, Giant took me to the clinic where we had to wait for quite a while. Biasalah tu kan. It was almost lunch time and Azhad (our 4 year old) was already making noise. He had very little for breakfast so he was demanding lunch in his usual volume (enough for the crowd to hear).

Azhad : Cepatlah, kenapa lambat sangat. Ad nak makan ni.
Dad : Eh, puasalah.
Azhad : Ha? Tak boleh makanlah?

Dad : Puasa kan tak boleh makan..

Azhad : Mati lah macam ni

I couldn’t help but joined the others, tak kiralah, yang sakit ke tak sakit ke, semuanya gelak.

Lagilah marah dia.. Poor boy..

difficult affairs - goodbyes and farewell

2005-10-24T15:55:00.000+08:00

Tak laratnya nak perah otak … Time basuh pinggan malam tadi mencurah-curah idea but now I’m left with none. Malasnya nak travel ke lipatan otak yg dalam-dalam tu. Reason being – I’m too sleepy!

I had a bad night where my desperate journey to dreamland was well let just say bad, very bad. A lot of interruptions especially when you're about halfway leaving planet earth, then you heard your name being called. Hmm.. The youngest of my brood demam and now that I’m left maid-less, I have to leave earlier than usual, kena detour, home-parent’s-work. Argh!! Kena pulak bulan puasa ni, tak bangun sahur untuk masak pun kena bangun makan jugak.. Lagi arghh!!

It’s a blessing that the wonderful Mr Giant ringan tulang, providing help whenever he can. Tu sebab if mengantuk pun takleh nak escape sahur.. Kesianlah pulak, dah la penat-penat dia masak.. Slack sebab tak pandai lipat baju je kalau tak kan LAGI best.. Amboi demand.. Hee..sorry boss!

A short note on Thursday. I took the day and Friday off to take care of the kids since the maid has to leave on Thursday. Witnessing the tearful farewell – of the maid and my youngest son, Adly had gotten me a bit teary jugaklah. Drama nya! Only much later I learned that the nation are grieving over the loss of the Nation’s first lady, Datin Sri Endon. While others mourn for Endon's departure, Adly was mourning for his Bibik's. After all, he's a 19 month old baby, no one expects him to know the First Lady. Other than the family, Bibik is the other person he's very close with. Apa tidaknya, since he was brought back from the hospital, Bibiklah yang jaga dia. Speak of whom, baru je SMS bertanyakan khabar budak tu.. Nak kena balas ni..

Before I go, let us all sedekah an Al-Fatihah to Allahyarhamah Datin Sri Endon.. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan dikalangan salihin yg terdahulu.. Amin

wrapping up the title

2005-10-18T15:29:00.000+08:00

Ask how many Malaysians out there remember the date of the first F1 we hosted in Sepang? Well, I am one of those who remember. Should I be proud? I think I should. One, I’m not much of the F1 fan. Two, I’m not even good with numbers what more with dates. Don’t tell that to Old Madam, she’ll kick my bu** - naya kurang increment, silap2 kena kick out the door terus!!. My work involves working with numbers and dates. I cant count that well and it shows in the monthly saving calculation report but more obvious, my savings passbook. And when it comes to remembering dates, I’m hopeless, that’s giving us another reason for not meeting the datelines (Sometimes). Shh. Let’s go back to the actual topic – the F1 date.

*Garu kepala* Apa benda dia nak citer ni? It’s ok, scratch on.. I wanted to talk about 17 Oct 1999 sebenarnya. That’s the date of the first F1 held in Sepang. And that very early morning I gave birth to my first born. Itulah ceritanya.. I have to remember the F1 race well enough. I tell you why.

Wheeled out from the OT, I couldn’t sleep a wink though I was very tired. The nurse had left the tv on but not the remote controller and I'm left with whatever's on air at that mo. So, I watched the race.. had to, with the hope that the sound of screeching cars would lull me to sleep.. it didnt work.. so, watching the race I did, right to the 56th lap. I know that Irvine got to the finishing line first followed by Schumacher but they both got thrown out of the race – too bad. I don’t know what happen to any of their appeals. Good news for Hakkinen, who was then the defending world champion.

So, since it was Zickry’s 6th birthday, it’s only fair that we celebrate. We had Iftar at my parents. There was a good feast of Mum’s ‘Nasi Daging’, an all time favourite for us all who were filled to the max, that we left the wee cake untouched..It was great, too bad no pics were taken. Too busy eating!

Zickry, it’s been great, colourful 6 years. I love you, we all do..

and the race continues..

2005-10-17T16:15:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan came and the race got wilder. We race to get the best of Ramadhan, not only the great spread of food served at the hotels, restaurants and even the pasar Ramadhan but towards gaining blessings from the Almighty too. The great month saw some great new projects coming in which means greater workload at the office. I raced against myself to complete what must I just to be home in time. That is yet, another race. It’s quite fortunate that home is about 15 minutes away and traffic is always so smooth unless if a big cow choose to die right in the middle of the long straight road. It could delay me a few seconds. (I saw you ‘irk’ing Zara.. heheh)

Yet there’s also another race, to cook, even if it's just a simple dish for the loved ones at home. It wasn’t something that I’m asked or even expected to, knowing the time and energy that I have but it’s great feeling having to do it. It’s not every year that both Giant and me spend the Ramadhan together so I thought, why not?

The race became more demanding since the maid cut her middle finger just a day before Ramadhan. She had gotten 4 stitches. Seeing the bloodied finger almost knock the wind out of me It’s quite severe and although she's not totally rested, I volunteered to ease some of her chores especially the washing-washing parts. Perfect timing, I should say. I had long been rested from doing some of the chores myself and she’s leaving in a couple of days. Leaving me – MAIDLESS, oh no!! I hope it wont be too freaking long for the replacement to arrive.

By next week, Mumsie will be the new Superwoman.. (Eyes shut – cannot imagine her in the blue spandex suit.. ewe!!) But I can imagine or rather, hear her hitting the ‘rotan’ tak kiralah kena pintu ke lantai ke. Well, she wont hit her grandchildren but the pintu and lantai will surely sumpah the boys. That’s another amazing race for her with the boys, definitely.

While racing towards the year end, some of us had been enlightened with great news, promotion and to some, salary adjustment. It’s welcoming although not as good as hefty bonuses some friends (not within the organization) received just a month back. Rezeki masing-masing..

It’s time to go since there’s still quite a lot to do and today, we’re racing home to celebrate Zickry’s birthday. I’ll try to update on that hopefully tomorrow.. Cheers!!

can we blame them?

2005-10-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

I dont know.. do you?

a cup of joe

2005-10-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

A friend was telling about both her father and father in-law who’re sick and bed-ridden. Of how she took them both under her care, how noble. I wish I have her strength and patience. I never had the chance to take care of my late father in-law as I lived too far from him and was heavily pregnant when he was ill. I’m blessed as my own is very much healthy and I pray he stays that way forever. I could only pray, but the fact is we all know, it’s all in His hands.

She was quoted as saying, "Between the two dads, it was like a race to the finishing line". Found out just a while ago that the dad in-law had beaten her own dad to it. He was called by his Maker last Friday. (Al-Fatihah)

On a different note, another friend is seen marking her calendars for a few of her friends’ engagement invites come this Eid. Another race, isn’t it? And next, she’ll be marking for wedding invite dates which hopefully will be followed by the happy couples’ child birth dates. Yet, another race, siapa dulu jadi ayah or ibu.

When we were young, we raced to the canteen during recess even to the toilets. Now we race alongside our colleagues for a few ringgits of yearly increment. Phew, life is all about racing, huh?
While some race are healthy, some aren’t. In school, we raced to get the highest scores, in some cases, the fairest broad.

In my case of unhealthy race, one nosy neighbour with long nose poking to smell on other neighbours - who had recently bought new car, has bigger house, you know the likes. Of course, she’s in a race of her own.

Still, life is about racing through time and along the process, let’s not forget to stick to the values. Only rats know no value.

twenty three skidoo

2005-10-03T15:05:00.000+08:00

The weekend may have added a few more colours to some people (ek-hem!), lengkap dengan drama ala-ala Drama Minggu Ini gitu, while ours went almost uneventful except for the Open Day at Zickry’s school on Saturday.

It could have been great if not for the lack of organization and space. Zickry did great in both of the plays - One as the ‘Big Bad smiling Wolf’ and the other as ‘The smiling Red Apple’.

tale of a dying volcano

2005-09-28T09:02:00.000+08:00

It's just start of the day and my blood is already boiling. Help!

I am holding myself from generously giving some *toot* right smack on the face, “Get off my face you *toot*” Fancy some early morning French? But of course I cant. Especially not when the yearly review is just screeching at nearby corner. Knowing these LBs, even a micro bit is costly, therefore, I’m not to take any chances.

One can only huff and puff, but dare we blow the house down?? *Sigh*

By end of this day, if I last that long, my tongue definitely will be a few mm shorter.

And as I was about to hit the full-stop key, I heard my name being called – again?

My tongue is definitely planning an escape from the mouth if this continues. Help!

and the back seat driver said ..

2005-09-26T16:05:00.000+08:00

I saw this add hung somewhere in a road enrouting back to the hotel during our Malacca visit recently.

Nampak tak what had caught my eyes? One doesnt have to look too carefully to notice.

Dah tau takde phone number, apesallah agaknya mereka tak letak before printing the banner..kan?

Alamat pun tak diberi. I still cant faham as for me this add serves no purpose.

On a different note, why Daniel?? It's damn frustrating, I tell you.

time doesnt stand still

2005-09-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

Mum had called just after Zickry came home from school spilling her testimony of the day's event.

She quoted him,

"Mak I have a girlfriend and her name is Soleha. I wish to marry her when I grow up".

Fancy that coming from a 6 year old.

Aduhai, kata orang, kencing pun belum lurus.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We heard below as mum was hauling over the coals one morning,

"Kan dah berpuluh kali dah Mak cakap jangan buat macam tu. Ini tetap tak dengar, dok buat jugak..."

Anak sorang ni sambil tersedu-sedu sempat jugak nak menjawab,

"Mana ada, Mak baru cakap 3 kali je.." (sambung nangis)

Aduhai Zickry..

** My children address their grandmother as 'Mak'.

on bended knees

2005-09-22T17:45:00.000+08:00

Dear God

I’m so sad, moved by a friend’s loss - her mum. I know it wont be too long when I’ll lose mine and I’m definitely not ready.

So please, I’m begging you to prolong her stay with us as there are still many things left unchecked on my to do list for her.

I know you’re listening, so help me God, bless her with good health. All I want is for her to leave contented, assured that my love for her is just as deep as hers for me.

Amin.

kl menjerit 3

2005-09-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

Harini nampaknya macam hari orang menjerit.

Pagi-pagi dah tengok orang mengamuk and marah-marah. I don’t know what best way to help, so, I kept my silence. I think it's best to leave that person alone. This showed me how ugly it looked when we burst out aloud in public. Especially when the issue being shouted about is kecik anak to some even the juniors.

Displaying anger in public is really a potrayal of stupidity. You’ll live to regret your actions and words much much later. I was about to type this line and my phone rang.

Another friend pulak called to ask if it’s normal to have emotional eruption so to speak, when one is having her menstrual. I’m no doctor know-it-all but I do know that some women experience the symptom call PMS. Asked her why and she told me she did, only this morning. There were a few mouthfuls of shouting , in the car, thank God dalam kereta and it ended with a hard slamming of the car door. I hope there were no by standers. I never knew this girl is almost THAT 'violent'. Quite fortunately, the partner is one of not so many words. He’s not dumb and I think he’s smart.

My mum said, kalau orang mengamuk tak tentu pasal, leave them alone. Kalau kita jawab balik, silap-silap salah pulak jawapan kita and things will get even uglier. Cuba bawak bertenang, take a deep breath and istighfar banyak-banyak.

I'm now getting sick of the blood in my mouth, having to bit my tongue too many times avoiding from trading words with these people with temperamental issues hoping to calm them down, which I failed most of the time, unfortunately. And I continue biting my tongue.

It's getting shorter by the day, I can tell.

Melaka : cont.

2005-09-19T16:09:00.000+08:00

Sunday was bright and sunny. We continued our sleep for another 2 hours in the bus headed to KL to grab lunch and some purchases at KLCC before visiting the KL Tower. We bid KL adios late afternoon and headed home right after visiting the Tugu Negara.

Happy happy campers came home with some M&S stuffs, a few books richer – courtesy of Giant who suggested we stopped at Kino for some read to kill the time. Azhad’s excitement shown when summarizing his trip to the maid, showing pictures and souvenirs he had gotten her.

It’s priceless, I’m tired but I sure am glad as it all went not only well but great.

Melaka - the city where it all began

2005-09-19T16:07:00.000+08:00

The trip went well. We had a blast.

As expected, Azhad didn’t sleep much in the bus that Friday night which resulted in him showing off his antics late Saturday afternoon. First half of Saturday was spent at A Famosa Resort where we observed, touched the animals and even enjoyed most of the shows but I’m not too sure if the animals were overjoyed at the sight of us. The tiger appeared to be too lethargic to even yawn. And the male lion displayed some dismay at us for barging in with the safari vehicle – whatever they call it while the pair was making out.

Lunch was a brief affair inclusive in the tour package and there’s nothing much to shout about but it’s lack of taste and variety. We then moved on to the Monkey Island taking the ‘rakit’-like boat which appeared to be really unsafe without life jackets fit for kids and when I said rakit, you got to really watch out for the kids. All it take is one slip and you’d be in the water in no time. I just had to go to avoid Azhad’s tantrums when I know I should be more than happy to wait for the rest under the shade. I don’t fancy burning my already tanned skin under the hot sun just to see a few caged monkeys and some roosters and hens on the man-made island. Nevertheless, Azhad enjoyed the rakit ride despite having to cling to me for the whole of 10 minutes ride.

We moved to enjoy the Malaysian version of The Wild Wild West show. Well, the setting looks very much the cowboy town but the actors are very the Malaysian or Malay, to be precise. The stunts were good but most of what were said by the actors were incomprehensible.

We were met by Giant at Kota Famosa when Azhad had just started displaying some of his antics. A bowl of cendul and one The Incredible action figure after, he’s back to his calmself.

At night we were dropped at Jonker Street where our quest for food began. I made mental notes on things to buy when passing some of the stalls only that I didnt get to buy anything, read on and I’ll tell you why. 5km (on foot) after, we found food and had our fill. Calm is not the word to describe famished and weary Azhad, the 8 of us inclusive at that time. Hunger ruled over anger and we chowed them food down managing decent conversation while waiting for bus to come and pick us all up. In short, Saturday night was all about walking, walking, walking and waiting waiting, waiting. And I didn’t get to buy any souvenirs for mum, which is too bad.

and the sun risen.. friday is here!

2005-09-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

Friday is finally here.

And yes, happiness! It's all about me taking Azhad with me to Malacca for an excursion this weekend planned by some office colleagues. I cant afford bigger birthday gift for Azhad so, this trip is his gift.

Boy, he is so teruja (excited) and has been asking me since last Friday if it's THE day already. I am a little excited too, not only I will get to see the land of Hang Tuah again, but this is more about spending time with Azhad.

This isnt my first time going to Malacca. But it's been a while. I dont think I'll remember any of the places I've been. But I still know the way to our old house, my old school. But we're not going to visit these places of course.

Well it's time to go, my hair needed washing and I need to pack.

Hope your weekend will be as great!

how refreshing

2005-09-15T11:02:00.000+08:00

undo me, my garments are in pain

2005-09-14T15:47:00.000+08:00

Undo me, my garments are in pain
Now I must crawl naked to your heart
Can I not find there a place to lie?
Lovers' kisses linger when they part

Even so, shall I with you remain
Life's not flesh, nor does it end with death
Its force, still radiant, fills each empty place
Gone the star, the light still strikes the eye;
Gone the flesh, the soul retains its grace
Your life, your love, your joy ~ these are my breath

i find this hilarious, do you?

2005-09-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

Why Did the Chicken Cross The Road? What The Experts Had To Say...

Kindergarten teacher: Because it wanted to get to the other side.

Aristotle: It is the nature of chickens to cross roads.

Ronald Reagan: I forget.

Arthur Andersen (consultant): Deregulation of the chicken's side of the road was threatening its dominant market position. The chicken was faced with significant challenges to create and develop the competences required for the newly competitive market. Andersen, in a partnering relationship with the client, helped the chicken by rethinking its physical distribution strategy and implementation processes. Using the Poultry Integration Model (PIM), Andersen helped the chicken use its skills, methodologies, knowledge, capital and experiences to align the chicken people, processes and technology in support of its overall strategy within a Program Management framework.

Richard M. Nixon: The chicken did not cross the road. I repeat, the chicken did NOT cross the road.

Computer Programmer: In order for the chicken to cross the road safely they would need more than one driver to access the server farm, if not they will hang in the middle of the road.

Jerry Seinfeld: Why does anyone cross a road? I mean, why doesn't anyone ever think to ask "What the heck was this chicken doing walking around all over the place anyway?"

Bill Gates: I have just released the new Chicken Office 2000, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook.

Dr M: You know, I am tired of all this...'apa-nama' chicken-chicken bisnes...the foreign powers should stop intervening in our domestic affairs and just leave our chickens alone.. If they want to... 'apa nama' cross the road, they should be allowed to cross the road... Malaysia is a democratic country; we let our chickens do whatever they want to do... as long as they don't threaten the Malay unity and try to topple the government...and if they plan to do so... we won't hesitate to use the ISA...

Pak Lah: Ini semua adalah khabar angin sahaja...jangan percaya khabar - khabar angin ini semua... biasalah ini adalah taktik pembangkang untuk memecah belahkan perpaduan ayam-ayam semua... jangan percaya... jangan percaya...

Sammy Vellu: Ayyooyoo... belakang cerita lain kali, kita sude bikin banyak jembatan, itu ayam musti guna jembatan untuk lintas itu jalan lagi pun kalu itu ayam mau pigi jalan-jalan, beritau sama saya juga, saya bolley buat lebbey banyak toll........

Karam Singh Walia: Seperti yang saudara dapat lihat, kelihatan ayam-ayam itu sedang melintas jalan. Mereka bukan sahaja melintas jalan, malah membuang najis di atas jalan dan ini adalah pencemaran yang paling hebat di maya ini. Bapa-bapa dan ibu-ibu ayam haruslah mengambil inisiatif untuk melatih ayam-ayam agar menahan najis sewaktu melintas jalan, sekian saya sudahi dengan.........Ayam di jalan di lintaskan; Ayam di reban mati tak makan.

Colonel Sanders: I missed one?

Bill Clinton: I've had so many chicks, I can't remember...

Wan Kamarudin: Ape kejadahnyer ini semua, KL dah jadik reban ayam, mak bapak ayam asyik menganga saje.

Zainal Ariffin Ismail: Ada saksi menyatakan yang mereka dapat melihat ayam-ayam ini melintasi jalan-jalan di kampung ini pada waktu malam. Ada yang menyatakan ayam-ayam ini merupakan penyamaran jin. Dan ada juga mengaitkan ia berkaitan dengan peristiwa silam di kampung ini. Apakah sebenarnya maksud tersirat ayam-ayam ini melintas jalan? Oleh itu saya akhiri, "Jangan biarkan hidup anda diselubungi misteri........."

Zainal Alam Kadir: "Ayam siapa kalau bukan ayam kita..."

happy birthday .. you're da bomb

2005-09-12T11:12:00.000+08:00

It was four years ago since the September 11th bombing. Time really flies. Especially when we’re having fun. Despite everything that had happened during the four years, I had fun.

Well, I shared the grieve together with the whole world over the tragedy. But I have my own reason to be happy. You see, a few hours after the world was shook with the bombing news, I had delivered a beautiful baby boy. It was as though the baby’s existence was oblivious to others. Even the doctor and nurses was talking about the bombing back in the labor room.

It was BIG news, the bombing. But of course it was. Everywhere, anywhere people were talking about it. Yet, my focus obviously set on the not so tiny influx, my precious.

I definitely had and still having fun watching you grow – Azhad Arief. It’s great, watching you grow. Although it’s always hurricane that followed wherever you go. No doubt the nick 'Mat Bomb'.

I love your witty remarks, your singing, your smile – well, EVERYTHING that you do! At times I lost my cool, boy, you’ve really shown me the meaning of patience. But hey, how could I not love you? You powered my world and add colours to my already colourful world. My life is never complete without any of you boys..

I love you and Happy fourth birthday!

love bite, ouch!

2005-09-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

I took this from a friend's e-mail. Please click here to read. Very interesting. Imagine the docs' faces when the couple enlightened them during the questioning..

hand in my pocket

2005-09-09T10:40:00.000+08:00

I'm broke but I'm happy

I'm poor but I'm kind

I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah

I'm high but Im grounded

I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed

I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to

Is that everything's gonna be fine, fine, fine

'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket

And the other one is giving a high five...

Click to listen Hand In My Pocket - Alanis Morissette

dont say you're not warned

2005-09-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

This is a self-absorbed blog, I’m beginning to realize.

I’m blaming my short on time as I put down just about anything that's in front of me, thus blogging is becoming more of a mental barf bag to me and I know even to many others too.

So, I apologise if my Technicolor life may not seem that colourful to you .. the choice is yours, do read on should you need a dosage to help you going to sleep..

i don't know about you, but i can't wait that long

2005-09-05T18:13:00.000+08:00

It’s worst than running a mad house. Lana Land was damn hectic from Friday night and it still is, I wish I’m a superwoman. Told my mum, if I am superwoman.. and she stopped me mid-sentenced, as she said.. you’ll give the best reason why the undies is worn outside – the kelam kabut you!

Friday evening
I took Bulat to see the paed since he had trouble sleeping the night before. My notion was confirmed that it was his athsma and he needed to be monitored meaning that we had to camp at the hospital that night. I rushed back, called my parents, called the hubs and the company’s industrial nurse. Back home I packed while my parents arrived and off we all went to the hospital.

There was a lot of delay at the reception when there were only 3 patients to be admitted at the time I was there. It totally drove the kids nuts. Bulat & Tuah displayed their antics and mummy’s gone nuts nuts nuts too. It was 1am (believe it!) when we were shown to the room. The best part is, the rooms are all occupied except for the six bedded rooms. I was expecting crisis. Either other kids don’t get to sleep or Bulat will be the one having issue sleeping with total strangers. Whatever, it’s too late anyway..

As expected, Bulat’s constant questioning (in his usual volume) kept the other kids awake. Questions like - why are we here? Why maktok (my mum) not staying? Why are these people sleeping in this big room? Silence ensued when he finally dozed off. I was thankful but hey, not for long. At about 5am, we were called on for Bulat’s nebulizing (hope I got the spelling right) session. Again, he woke the entire room (damage could go as far as the entire hospital mind you). After much hue and cry and the session that seemed forever, we got him back to the bed. He then demanded breakfast – at 5am!! Adoi!! The sweet girl sleeping next to his bed was too kind to offer him her story book (to probably shut him up) and so mummy had to read bedtime stories to both boy and girl. The girl yawned followed by Bulat and by the time I turned to the last page, both were sound asleep. Not bad, I thank Peter Pan and went to sleep.

Saturday
Giant met us at about 6am straight from the bus station. (He took the bus from JB on Friday night) He took the car, went home, showered and came back with breakfast for moi. He stayed with Bulat for another session of nebulizing while I showered.

We saw the paed and he insist on us staying another night. I must have made some funny faces that he changed his mind and told us to take ‘a night’s leave’ and come back the next morning. I’m pretty sure they’re charging us for another night but I missed my bed too much to worry about the loot the insurance company has to burn. We went home right after the afternoon nebulizing session taking the medicines and Bulat (of course) with us. Bulat slept much better that night much to the parents delight. Oit, it’s been 2 weeks since we’ve seen each other!

Sunday
We were at the hospital just in time the paed was starting his round. Bulat was discharged after the paed showed us how to use the inhaler. Checking out is another issue. We were told that they need at least 3 hours to clear some stuff with the insurance company so we went out to town. It was too early to visit the mall at 10am but still we went.

Of all places with a kid in tow, we headed to the snooker center. You must be thinking – what were these 2 thinking eh? Well, there were 2 choices – snooker or bowling center (about the only places that had started operating) and we need some activity to kill time. Bowling is out as we do not want to tire Bulat. Plus no one smoked in there. Bulat was seated on the high stool while both me and Giant shot some pool. Giant won cheers from Bulat everytime he pocketed the balls and obviously won all three sets.We then kill more time (and our foot) by surveying the stores.

Back at the hospital, the lady said she had earlier mistaken me for another patient’s mum hence the wait. She wasn’t even apologetic. Ppft.. AND they made me wait at the counter - again?? Who can tahan like this? It was like someone pushed the fast forward button after I ‘ter’blew my top – Oopsie.

Later we went home to pick Miracle and the maid to attend tahlil at Mak Tok’s. The curry was splendid.

Such was the weekend at Lana's

my garden

2005-09-02T14:30:00.000+08:00

Herewith some plants in my garden.. actually there are not in my garden yet, still at the porch, hehehe .. too busy clearing the garden now so that all this plants will have a proper home. Excuse the bottle in the pic, that’s the soap to wash the car. Did you know, you can sweat buckets if you wash your own car! Hehehe... my discovery one weekend, but that’s another story ;)

You see the flowers in the pic? I got that for free for buying almost RM100 worth of plants (including rumput too).. I went all the way to Sungai Buluh to buy them. The road there, alamak... jam giler... it took me an hour to reach the place. Worth it though coz they are kinda cheap. You can get plants at RM1.00.

My hoe sampai tumpul dah sebab nak buang rumput semua. The rocks I found in the garden, berlambak-lambak, can create a whole Rock Garden lagi..hahahahha

Gardening can be really therapeutic. After a long hard day at work, come back and garden, I felt relief. Futhermore .. the colourful flowers and the greenery of the plants … soothing. Amazingly, I have pokok keladi which appears out of the blue from the garden, sprouting everywhere. It’s always been there but whenever the grass cutter came, he cut everything. Now that I am paying a lot of attention to what grows in my garden, I just realize what I have been missing before. And to think that he other day I actually bought a not-too-old-yet pokok keladi at RM 25.00 per piece!!!

And FYI .. pokok daun kari (betul ke ni?) senang sangat nak tumbuh. I bought one early August, then I left to Bali for 5 days, totally forgot about this pokok. When I come back… it’s dead! I cut the dead leaves, put the whoel pokok in the garden, put baja .. and within few days, new leaves sprout out. It’s amazing.

On a sad note, I have killed 2 plants already. I think too much sun.

Will update with progress ..

mirror mirror on the wall

2005-08-30T10:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I’ve finished the monthly report. On time, again. Old Lady looked fine (at least when I left that late Monday evening) but I still havent heard any comments from her. No news, is always good news, no?

You see, she’s among the many lady bosses who’s not very keen on showing how pleased she is when you know she should be. A simple thank you would suffice, really. This one, like cannot smile at all. You can, however, never miss her smiles after she had her fill.

Otherwise, she’ll be all serious like almost ready to grapple against anyone who crosses her path.

Since she came aboard, I seem to have acquired more wrinkles. Is it the intensity of the work or stress or her? Penatlah nak pikir. Nanti tambah stress. I dont want to be wasting my loot for more anti wrinkles products.

Now, where’s my magic mirror.

the trip down south

2005-08-29T15:14:00.000+08:00

It was pouring throughout our journey down south on Friday night. Dad took the wheels the whole journey with Miracle slept unperturbed and me busied myself texting few friends and Giant to keep me from dozing off. Arrived KL minutes past 1am and head straight to Tra-lala Land just a few minutes after sinking in the bed with the much missed Bulat.

On Saturday we all went out to Ikano where we met, who else, Zara, otherwise according to Giant, my trip will not be complete. Kena jugak jumpa walaupun sejam dua. It was great seeing you, fliend.. everytime. After lepak2 session at my bro’s Zara took her leave and Dad decided to take us to sample the infamous Satay Kajang, mana lagi if not Kajang. Since that’s the first time we brought the maid (and the last as she’s leaving soon) so we showed her a bit of KL.

We left almost mid-day on Sunday. It was sunny and it felt like the journey took us forever back with the boys non-stop antics… phew! We made it back at about 3pm (Finally). I have to continue camping at my parent’s, as my sister who lives far far away (in Langkawi..heh! Not London) is due for a visit. So we waited.. And waited.. By the time they arrived it was wee after 9pm. The boys looked tired although not a bit lacking of energy playing and fighting for their cousin’s attention.

I was certainly glad to be home in my own bed just before mid night.

I'm thinking about the gals (Zara & my sis), how great they look everytime I see them. Envy nya...!

nice bed huh??

2005-08-26T12:01:00.000+08:00

I purchased a mosquito net, something like this, in Bali recently. At the moment it's hanged in the spare room (my so-called walk-in closet) as there's no hook in my bedroom yet. It looks good. Once it is properly hang on my bed, I'll take the pic and post here.

I am redoing the house totally, completely, even the lawn! And it;s still not finish. Started this since early August and the house still in a mess.

my glorious night

2005-08-26T09:16:00.000+08:00

I’m kind of adjusting to the tranquility of the house. It feels weird at times. I'm missing the noise (hah!)

There’s nothing much on tv and I’m not in the mood to read, so as soon as I’m done with the usual cuppa, I resigned to my bedroom. Empty bed awaited. The routine continued - Set the alarm clock. Turned off the lights. Bla bla..

I was almost sunk in the sack when I remembered to text Giant. So I did, eyes half closed.

"Good nite, Darling. The bed IS empty and it’s freaking cold." And sent already.

Minutes later the phone beeped. Must be his reply.

"Good nite, dear. My bed is ALWAYS empty. See you tomorrow!"

Baffled, Giant’s not due home this weekend. This cant be right. I read the text again and it hit me.

The reply came from my BOSS!! My gawd!! I texted the BOSS?

Habislah.. Anyways, TGIF..

stripped but barely naked

2005-08-25T15:59:00.000+08:00

I woke up listening to the sound of rain pattering hard on the roof this morning. I so damn wish I could spend more time on the empty bed.

It's not even a day and yet I miss the boys already. My ever so colourful life is now seem colourless (wah! so sentimental). They had left for KL yesterday with my mom and bro. Much needed break for Mom which is turning to be a break for myself. She had insisted on taking the boys with her. Now, how will she enjoy the break with the kids tagging with her? Well, that's my mom.

Adding colour to dad's life, I called him for dinner at our house as I'm sure his is very quiet now that mom and Tuah both in KL. We'll be driving down Friday night to meet the happy and boisterous campers.

post-paid .. pre-paid

2005-08-23T17:28:00.000+08:00

A Chinese friend tanya tadi, "Eh, kalau naik flight how you all sembahyang?".

My answer was, "If one is travelling more than 90km, he or she is considered as Musafir who can opt either to sembahyang cara post-paid or pre-paid".

*Garu kepala*

1. Me - betul ke apa aku cakap? I meant Jamak Akhir / Awal
2. Dia - korang pun ada pre and post paid kah??

~~~~~

Masa study dulu we always rush to class, tak kira pagi ke petang. So, there's this one afternoon I waited for a friend on her bed while she hastily perforemd her prayer. I couldnt help noticing that she took like less than 10 seconds berdoa soon after.

"That's bloody fast.. Ko doa apa tadi", I asked her on our way to class.

"Ya Tuhanku, macam biasa..." She jawab dengan selambanya

Boleh ka like that? I thought that was funny ..

sorry satu lorry

2005-08-17T12:12:00.000+08:00

(From an e-mail sent by a friend)

Suatu hari seorang bayi siap untuk dilahirkan ke dunia...
Dia bertanya kepada Tuhan : "Para malaikat disini mengatakan bahawa besok Engkau akan mengirimkan saya kedunia, tetapi bagaimana cara saya hidupdisana; saya begitu kecil dan lemah ?" Dan Tuhan menjawab: "Aku telah memilih satu malaikat untukmu. Ia akan menjaga dan mengasihimu."

Bayi bertanya lagi: "Tetapi disini; didalam syurga ini, apa yang saya lakukan hanyalah bernyanyi, bermain dan tertawa...Inikan sudah cukup bagi saya untuk berbahagia." "Malaikatmu akan bernyanyi dan tersenyum untukmu setiap hari. Dan kamu akan merasakan kehangatan cintanya dan menjadi lebih berbahagia"

"Dan bagaimana bisa saya mengerti disaat orang-orang berbicara kepada saya jika saya tidak mengerti bahasa mereka ?" "Malaikatmu akan berbicara kepadamu dengan bahasa yang paling indah yang pernah kamu dengar; dan dengan penuh kesabaran dan perhatian. Dia akan mengajar kepadamu cara berbicara."

"Dan apa yang akan saya lakukan saat saya ingin berbicara kepadaMu ?"" Malaikatmu akan mengajarkan bagaimana cara kamu berdoa"

"Saya mendengar bahawa di Bumi banyak orang jahat. Siapa yang akan melindungi saya ?""Malaikatmu akan melindungimu; walaupun hal tersebut mungkin akan mengancam jiwanya"

"Tapi, saya pasti akan merasa sedih kerana tidak melihatMu lagi""Malaikatmu akan menceritakan kepadamu tentang Aku, dan akan mengajarkan bagaimana agar kamu bisa kembali kepadaKu; walaupun sesungguhnya Aku akan sentiasa disisimu"

Disaat itu, Syurga begitu tenang dan heningnya sehingga suara dari Bumi dapat terdengar, dan sang bayi bertanya perlahan : "Tuhan, jika saya harus pergi sekarang, bisakah Kamu memberitahuku nama malaikat tersebut ?""Kamu akan memanggil malaikatmu itu: IBU"

Ingatlah sentiasa kasih sayang dan pengorbanan ibu. Berbakti, berdoa dan cintailah dia sepanjang masa..... Dialah sesatunya harta yang tiada galang gantinya dunia akhirat....

Dan untuk para ibu, ingatlah kisah ini dikala kamu hilang sabar dengan karenah anak-anak yang sedang membesar...sesungguhnya Syurga itu dibawah telapak kakimu...

** Sorry Bulat, I lost my cool last night. I’ll make it up to you. Today, I'm not planning to stay at the office longer than I should so we could spend more time together..

weekend bluey

2005-08-16T17:27:00.000+08:00

I fear that his blog soon becomes another warm-warm chicken shit project. Procastination is never an issue and not that I don’t have the exact reason to blog. Well, do we need to have one? I don’t know. Much as I would love to, time for me is very much a big factor especially here at work. I look forward to getting connected at home where I could at least blog peacefully not worrying about any incomings.

I’m tired of the lingering haze that had finally moved up north during the weekend. Ruining it all for most of us here. What a bummer! And Giant’s back early Saturday morning.

Mawi is like another season too. My eyes are really tired looking at his smiling faces amongst other celebs amidst of the magazines racks in most stores. No, let’s not talk about him. Infact, my ears had gone thicker listening to all the stuffs Giant had brought back with him on who else - Mawi, Mawi and Mawi lagi. Now, even the fingers refuse to type his name. I dont hold anything against him, dont get me wrong. But enough is enough, I better not go on.

Let’s not go anywhere near the political happenings too. I know too little and I have to agree with Mokcik Nab, we could only spend hours of talking but talking alone will not help changing a single thing.

Digressing on the weekend. The weekly swimming session still put on hold since Bulat still had not fully recovered from his athsma. To compensate, Giant took us all to Gurney Plaza. We need to be indoor, yes? Indoor we were, checking on the sale at every outlets there were. The boys were everywhere, hyper as always, athsma or no athsma. A tiring and satisfying outing for all, the youngest dozed off as soon as the car left the parking lot with his purchase unwrapped in his lap.

The trip to the zoo was cancelled too. So Sunday was all about managing them boys in our own ‘zoo’ packed with Batman, Spiderman and not forgetting Ultraman (with all the names I don’t even know exist). In my time I know there’s Ultraman and he’s called just Ultraman. Now, I learnt that there’s Ultraman Tiga, Taro, Seven and the list go on. How come there are so many Ultramans yet there are still a lot more monsters in Japan?

Rashes was discovered all over Bulat’s body just as he woke up from his afternoon nap. So, we took a trip to Mak Tok’s who was too glad to see us all. It was confirmed as rashes because there isn’t anything on Bulat’s skin when we attempted to show Mak Tok just to validate that if it’s rashes or measles. The boys had a blast running around their great-granny's huge compound was which great, good sign for yet another early night.

Anyway, at least we made Mak Tok happy (and busy) with the visit.

the rainbow story

2005-08-09T16:22:00.000+08:00

Dont you just love rainbow? Well, I most certainly do. A beauty which reminds me of how great the Creator is.

The traditional rainbow is sunlight spread out into its spectrum of colors and diverted to the eye of the observer by water droplets. The "bow" part of the word describes the fact that the rainbow is a group of nearly circular arcs of color all having a common center.

Kecik-kecik dulu kawan-kawan kata jangan tunjuk towards pelangi. Nanti jari kudung they said. I don’t remember asking my parents about it. Curious, young as I was then, I experimented by pointing my index right to the rainbow when I spotted one. I woke up next morning anxious and well, my fingers are all intact. At 10, I pretty much decided then, it's only a myth.

Rainbow at night, shepherd's delight;
Rainbow in morning, shepherds take warning

If there be a rainbow in the eve, It will rain and leave;
But if there be a rainbow in the morrow, It will neither lend nor borrow

Rainbow to windward, foul fall the day;
Rainbow to leeward, damp runs away

I'm a bit distressed which explains the talk on rainbow. I have this inclination of thinking about beautiful things especially when I'm down.

I’m keeping my hope high for the ‘rain’ to end so I could enjoy the sight of a beautiful rainbow very soon. Rainbow to leeward, damp runs away..

demam lagi

2005-08-08T10:22:00.000+08:00

While Zara strut in her bikini enjoying the beautiful sands of Bali, I spent the weekend on the bed down with fever. Bulat sangat sweet, played nursey and brought me my ubat-ubatan.

The weekend was however, not totally ruined nor wasted. After 3 years of procastinating, at last, I’ve completed reading Hannibal. Good story though I find it a bit ‘lembab’ and don’t quite like the ending. I think Thomas Harris must have another sequel by now.

Must go get the DVD sometime next week.

o me head

2005-08-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

I woke up with a terrible, terrible headache and the cough syrup still affecting the system. Now, I still am at the office and feel like I shouldn’t be here at all. Not because of the fever, but the guilt I’m currently feeling.

It’s been 2 days since I had this fever and last night it got worst. I came home barely a few minutes before sun down, spoke with the kids for a bit and slept. I was woken up by Bulat who had joined me on the bed. Poor boy, he’s having his nose block issue again…

I helped him for a bit, ate, took my pills and went straight off to LaLa land. I did notice Bulat when he woke up few times crying about his blocked nose. Instead of helping, I told him to clean his nose himself and sleep.

I soon dozed off.. but he keeps on waking up.. and weak as I was, all I did was telling (well more like mumbling then) that he should handle the nose block issue himself. This morning as I watched him sleeping, I felt so guilty.

I really want to tell him how sorry I am.

*Sigh* I hope he understands.

i'm back!!

2005-08-01T16:47:00.000+08:00

It wasnt kerana demam AF3, although I somewhat demam jugaklah in a different way. Might be sebab tengok orang lain demam dah melampau-lampau.. kesian diorang.. Duit diorang kan?!!

It wasn’t other things but work.. Been up to my eye balls of late. That’s why I have not been updating. Nothing would, however, keep me off from reading other blogs. Well, after all, multi tasking is F-U-N. Keeps my blood from “going upstairs” whenever the server is really at it’s worst.

It’s been pretty slow day so far and I’ve been yawning like a big, fat, lazy cat since morning! Now I cant even think of a thing to blog about!

Hopefully my sail for the rest of the week goes as smooth.. haha!

Weekend was very quite with Giant’s away since mid July. I had tons of time for myself so on Saturday morning, I took si Bulat for rounds of ‘exercise’ to keep him off from the darn PS2.
As usual, after a quick meal at McD, he’s already talking about going home. Tak boleh buat shopping buddy langsung!

It was yet another quiet session during the weekly AF concert that night. Kalau ada AF fanatik aka Giant si mamat Johore (world!), boleh jugak layan gaduh on his (and many other's) idol.

And when the boys are asleep, I recoiled back to my shell and read. Boring? Tell me about it.

yang secupak takkan jadi segunung ...

2005-07-13T17:01:00.000+08:00

Mengada-ngada sungguh!

The maid's hubby called many times yesterday wanting for some money to be sent home.
I know I shouldnt but I am really bothered! Yes, it's her money and I shouldnt interfere.. Tapi tak ke kesian.. Kerja teruk-teruk yang senang-lenang orang lain.

The money he's asking for is for his motorbike's installment, not for the children! The bike was just recently purchased and ntah macamana he could get the loan - he's jobless!

Bini susah-susah cari duit kat sini, dia senang je kumpul hutang... The money she earned is merely intended to build a better house for them ..

How?

the run-away-groom

2005-07-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

A colleague had earlier invited me for her akad nikah ceremony on Saturday which I didnt attend. Hence, I tried calling her this morning to congratulate her but only to find out that the ceremony was called off.

It's heart breaking furthermore I was only told by another friend of the sad news. Sad? More of sakit hati. I'm pretty sure she feels a lot worse. Didnt have the chance to actually speak to her. I think it's best that we leave her alone. Surely she'll talk to us when she's ready. I cant actually wait to give my 2 cents actually. I'm so so hoping that she will call off the wedding!

From what I know, the guy called on the very night of the ceremony to postpone, I dont know for what reason tho. He deserve to be deserted by her, tak responsible sungguh. I mean it is accepted if he had informed her that he needs more time whatsoever. Just not the night before.

Cold feet?? What's with the brain? Clogged? Fogged?

I'm actually curios as to why some really face this cold feet issue. Please read below taken from an article found in weddings.about.com

Possible causes of calling off Weddings;

If one has discovered that his/her future spouse has a drug or alcohol problem and is not in recovery
If the future spouse has been violent towards oneself
If either one has been unfaithful or deceitful
If thinking about the wedding has given one feelings of dread rather than happiness for more than a month
If both differ on whether or not to have children
The majority of one’s friends don't like the future spouse
If one is only going through with it because he/she will be too embarrassed to call it off, or worried about hurting the fiancé.

Strategies for Overcoming Cold Feet

Spend some time writing down your fears. You may find that once they are on paper, they become silly. If not, write down possible solutions to each problem, should it become true. For example, fears over a loss of identity could have solutions such as not changing your name, taking up new hobbies, or reserving one night a week post-marriage for "girls night" or "boys night."
Differentiate whether your cold feet are stress over getting married in general, or questions about this specific relationship.
Take a break from wedding planning – it will all be there when you're ready to move on.
Designate at least one night weekly as a "wedding-free zone" where you do not talk about the wedding at all.
Spend some time writing about the happiest moments of your relationship, perhaps including your first dates, when you fell in love, and the story of your engagement.
Write down all the good things about being a married person.
Talk to happily married couples and ask them the secrets of their success.
Visit an individual or couples therapist.
Talk to your trusted friend.
Rekindle the romance – go away for a romantic weekend, make dinner for each other, spend time pampering one another.

miracle

2005-07-08T16:19:00.000+08:00

I remember posting about a friend who's hubby met with an accident a couple of weeks ago. Yesterday I was allowed to visit her & the hubs accompanied by a few colleagues.

He's recuperating at an admirable speed, I must say. I'm happy for her though I couldnt help feeling sorry for what she's going through now. A test indeed from Him, I pray that they both stay strong..

life is nothing but a miracle
a star that will forever shine
if you only have the strength
to grab life with both hands
and leap into the great unknown

(Life : Heather Tucker)

right 'ere waiting

2005-07-07T09:17:00.000+08:00

her case - waiting for the right beau..
my case - waiting for an invite to the wedding ..

*right feet tapping, eye brow raised*..jadi ke tak jadi ni?

like a beee ..

2005-07-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

no, not the sting, the busyness ... tried calling u Lana but u were away from desk i suppose.

went to work late today coz i got a migraine. the kind tht feel like someone is shaking yr head. i keep having this and i think i know wht causing it - unhappiness.

i am on diet from today onwards, for the bali trip. i must fit into my bikini! no coffee, no tea, NO SUGAR, more vegetables, raw ones, more fruits ...

last nite i weight myself and I am 1 kg more than normal but i want to get rid at least 4 kg. did power walk last nite, walk from home to BSC then come back then walk towards the other way.

let see how much will i lose in 4 weeks.

and so it goes

2005-07-06T11:26:00.000+08:00

I have been busy, thus the silence. It's been a quiet week so far. What's great is that the bosses are again attending some summit some where.

new look - again!!

2005-07-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

Lucky we dont have that many visitors.. If not surely orang menyampah as there's too many changes. I'm hopeful that this is a final one though I dont quite like the pink karer.. But the banner is great eh? Many thanks to Maknenek & Kak Teh who had 'susah-susah jer..' help us put it up. Cantik sungguh and we owe you ladies!!

summer in london

2005-06-30T18:10:00.000+08:00

Summer in London
Originally uploaded by zaarra.

i'm a big fan of flowers, i am so looking forward to retire (looooooooooooong way to go though..) and become full time gardener. whenever i travel, i'll take more pictures of flower more than anything else. hardly can see myself in the collection .. (exagerate ni!). will post more pic of flowers.

i did some gardening at home now, but it's kinda pathetic. they say all the plants and flowers need water, sun and love to live. i've been so busy lately that i have been neglecting them. will post pic of these too ...

tuah

2005-06-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

English - 92
B. Malaysia - 89
Science - 96
Maths - 96

Tuah’s mid-year result. Not bad for a pre-schooler, eh? According to the teacher, he is progressing well. Actually I’m not quite pleased that he doesn’t read yet. He’s 6. Am I expecting too much?

what goes around, comes around

2005-06-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

Though we enjoyed our excursion to the mall (on weekday*wink*) with Kecik the miracle baby, I pestered Giant to rush home so I could watch Average Joe.

We got home long before the show begun but I was occupied with the baby that I could catch the remaining 30 minutes of the show.

Gawd!! Some ending! Bad move, gal!! She shouldn’t have picked the man whom I do think only want to win for the profit of his ego. But hey, had she chosen Brian, it’ll be such a waste too because I think that poor guy deserves a better girl although it’s clear that he really appreciates her.

What I don’t understand is why that ‘emotionally retarded’ Gil left her. Who’s Fabio? Rugi, shouldn’t spent more time at the mall – could have cari the baju to wear for Saturday’s Dinner..

old and wise

2005-06-27T10:07:00.000+08:00

Neat, just what I needed!! While driving to work this morning, I pledged to be home early. Well, we’ll see.. Darn the monthly report!!

Been in the dumps last week. Lots of things – some which added to the weight;

- I feel deeply for the mum who had her newborn taken away. Thankfully they found the boy. And like others, I’m more than happy that it’s happy ending for the family.
- I feel for a friend whose hubby is currently in coma. He had undergone 2 operations to remove blood clots after a serious accident. She refuses of any visits so all we can do is pray for him to get better soon and for her – may she stays strong throughout the ordeal. I’d feel much better if I could at least share her my skinny shoulder.
- I feel for another friend whose dad is now placed in the ICU after he had vomited blood earlier this morning. He’s such a fighter! Due to the distance, the best we can do is again, pray for him – May Allah makes it easy for him. And again, I wish I could share my skinny shoulder with her too!

The song kept coming again and again in my head..
*Must be the atmosphere here in the dumpster!

As far as my eyes can see
There are Shadows approaching me
And to those I left behind
I wanted you to Know
You've always shared my deepest thoughts
You follow where I go

And oh when I'm old and wise
Bitter words mean little to me
Autumn Winds will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they asked me if I knew you
I'd smile and say you were a friend of mine
And the sadness would be Lifted from my eyes
Oh when I'm old and wise

As far as my Eyes can see
There are shadows surrounding me
And to those I leave behind
I want you all to know
You've always Shared my darkest hours
I'll miss you when I go

And oh, when I'm old and wise
Heavy words that tossed and blew me
Like Autumn winds that will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they ask you if you knew me
Remember that You were a frined of mine
As the final curtain falls before my eyes
Oh when I'm Old and wise

As far as my eyes can see
Song : Old and Wise (Colin Bluntstone)

yahooo .. it's friday!

2005-06-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

had a slow start as i had a late nite last nite. went for a networking event, supposedly to go home by 10.00 pm, we ended up chit-chatting till midnite. wake up time this morning was hard!

i think the 1st half day was the hardest. in the afternoon, i had to interview a girl for the csr post. i think i scared her coz half way through the interview she say she feel she's not suitable for the job. probably my too-short-a-skirt scare her.. ;-). she was very decent, in baju kurung and all but very un-professional, she was munching on sweet the whole time.. nonsense!

am heading to starlight (http://www.starlightcinema.com/my/) tomorrow for a 4 hours movie marathon. 8.30 watching Meet The Fockers and 10.30 for Hitch. i'll be bringing my bantal busuk .. haahahahhah. won 4 tickets the other.

nice ....

zzzzzzz ..........

2005-06-24T09:56:00.000+08:00

i am so ... sleeeeeeeeepy ....... I-)

*yawn* ...........

went to one networking event yesterday, mingle mingle, chatting chatting, drinking drinking, and drinking somemore and somemore ... first barrel was sponsored by one company and after that on-your-own.

*yawn*........

thats when cousin dearest introduce his friend, Jack. i wanted to go home at 10.00 ended up staying till midnite

*yawn* .......

now i am so sleepy .... and tired. there were 5 of us, 3 ladies + 2 men, getting sloshed, talking all sort of rubbish.. mostly man vs woman issues ..

my miracle baby

2005-06-22T13:21:00.001+08:00

This is the fella who never fail to interrupt our retreat in slumberland every single night.. It's an old pic. Now, at 15 months he's wee bit over 9kg. So light eh? Well, after all, he was born a mere 1.4kg. 1 1/2 months earlier than expected. Couldnt blame them, there's not much room for two, I guess. Yup, I had twins then. It's unfortunate that my sweet little girl survived only 10 days.

Now here's an addition of the earlier 2 who're more than capable of sending me to the nut house!!

bali sunset

2005-06-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

Bali sunset
Originally uploaded by zaarra.

i shot the sherriff

2005-06-22T10:00:00.000+08:00

New wardrobe, hope you like it zara. Ada ke memalam sms asked me to change look..

Didnt post anything yesterday though i have 3800 topics to write about (huh?)

I came to work very early feeling muzzy, and like some people, I like spending my time reading other people's blog too. So early and yet the phones have already been ringing and boy, my inbox was unbelievably full! Had to forgo the idea of reading them blogs then. So, I did some cleaning up, though the e-mails just seemed to come in non-stop... and, suddenly, one of the archives vanished!! Yes, vanished when I didnt even attempt to delete it. Making it worst, the archive stores the most important data. Instead of screaming my lungs out, I just stood there infront of the @*$# pc, staring point blank - too stunned to even speak. Habislah kalau ada price issues later ni.. All the quotes and contacts were totally gone!

And that's why I didnt call you whole of yesterday, my dear friend. Tension giler babi .. 7 lori babi!!
I was all silent in the car, Giant pun heran. Ada orang jumpa power off switch for his chatter box ke?

Now, how do I face the Old Mama..

balqis ..

2005-06-21T19:23:00.000+08:00

Balqis
Originally uploaded by zaarra.

called my sist earlier, the kapten, she's in PD with her kids. actually she got a course but since the govt giving her a big room at the conference so she brought her kids along + maid of coz. when i called her, they were at the swimming pool, the anak-anak berteriak sakan at the background. how i adore my nieces esp Balqis .. she is so super adorable. she can't speak yet but comel sungguh. once i figure out how to post a pic, will post her pic.

kapten n Lana were schoolmates many many mooooooooons ago, she were our link intially then we just click.

sometimes i just called my sist to hear the kids voice. i think biological clock is ticking way too loudly ler .. sometimes when i look at a pregnant woman, i wish i am her. pathetic kan?

i had dinner with few friends last saturday, 2 of them mom, they said it's best to not have kid for the 1st 2 years of marriage. enjoy each other first before having a kid. issue here is - biler aku nak kawin nyer??? adoi ........

MatSallehGiler drop by the office at lunch time, terkezut besar aku. so happen i was at the reception. so we hang out at the lounge area, chit-chat. he say to check him out in the edge, he have an article in it. saw it afterwards, ada gambar lagi, kelakar giler the face. he ask me to marry him (for the umpteeth time) ..

yang aku nak, tak tanyer, yang aku tak nak, hari hari tanyer ... entah apa karma aku ..

if one day i do say yes, blame it on the clock!

black one for me

2005-06-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

Today definitely one of the worst Monday ever. Starting with me having a terrible tooth-ache + ulcer in the mouth + bad bad headache. Most of the time, I'll be in %$#@&^ pain ... chewing food is such a torture. I am wincing every other mins as it felt like someone poke me with a sharp tools at the left side of my head .. adoi ....................

On normal day, I would have been on MC but we are short of staff now, one resign last week and another one took emergency leave, one of her uncle passed away. Second death in her family this month, one of my other colleague actually commented, "Musim orang meninggal ke sekarang ni?" ... Eh? Giler budak ni.

BTW Lana, our dear friend, Ms Entrepreneur called this morning asking me if i'm free for coffee but I can't coz bz bz bee .. she said she's heading to Johor for a month to help an old friend of hers open a Japanese Restaurant. Her business is ok, I havent been to her stall for a while.

Mr Ha called, I think he's fallen for me, we'll see, I'll update rom time to time. As for the MatSallehGiler tu, every day without fail, will confess his love and affection. His idea of humor is by calling me Mental! When I protest, he says it's the Brit way of joking around. He never give up even though I've told him since 2003 that we can never be together. Orang tua tua cakap, tak boleh benci orang over-over, nanti itu yang lekat... ish, takut betul dengan pepatah ni. Simpang malaikat 44 gitu...

it's monday .. again

2005-06-20T08:54:00.000+08:00

Bestnya harini.. Old Mama is gone - back to her hometown. Of course we'll be hearing from her as she'll be working from HK's office but at least lega lah as she's not around.

Her presence somewhat sparks negative aura - every single day. Big Daddy wont be around whole week too!! Unusual feeling I have, this Monday morning..

*Back to work, honey..*

tsk..tsk..not another one

2005-06-17T14:16:00.000+08:00

Tarra!! As you can see Zara, there's another change *wink* to which I'm sure you'll say - AGAIN??
Well, I just cant help it especially after most recent discovery..

Aye, I suddenly got goose bumps all over.. macamana lak buleh sama ni?

Macam tau2 je.

at last..hick!!

2005-06-16T16:16:00.000+08:00

At last!! Now that we finally own a ‘place’ to call ‘our own’, I don’t know what exactly to write or where to begin … (duh!!)

Must admit, the Old Mama will surely kill me if she ever finds out that instead of completing her report, I was actually riveting myself into creating our OWN BLOG – heheh..

Waduh, kawan, the ‘madam’ makes me sound so old….

this is great..ahahahaha...

2005-06-16T15:52:00.000+08:00

pheeeeeeeeeeeww.. after being a lurker for too-long-a-time at other people's blog, our turn to start our own blog. thanks to Mdm Lana who actually make the effort to create this ... she's happily married with kids, waaaaaaaaay up north and me, super-single in kl. we knew each other since 1989, oh wow, thats 16 years already .. amazing, never actually calculate it till today, heheh ... we are going to be anon, coz sometimes our life is just too colorful.. ;-) alright then, Mdm Lana.. your turn...